When I graduated from high school I had these dreams of becoming great like some of my idols in the computer and scientific world. I dreamed of living up to their standards and accomplishing the types of things they had.
I wanted to discover something new and wonderful. My relativity, my calculus so to speak. Yet what I've come to realize this past year, is that I was not just looking up to some of these greats of math and science, but I was trying to be them. And in doing so, I haven't been living as I would choose to. The story goes like this.
Often, in a half serious/joking manner, I would muse "Where would we be if Newton or Hawking had grown up with World of Warcraft?" My thinking was that they would be so consumed with these games that they wouldn't have gone on to make the great discoveries of their day.
Yet I've realized that I've been trying to rationalize why I haven't made a great discovery or formed a great new way to accomplish a task. That I had been attempting to equivocate my my less than accomplished life, to theirs. Trying to write these distractions off as my undoing and the reason behind their great success.
This was incredibly arrogant of me.
Yet, knowing this, it begs the question, where does this leave me?
I'm not sure yet. I know a few areas I would like to address first, and I think I will play it by ear.
- Weight. I have to face the fact that I'm overweight. I've began going to the gym, and I've started to cut back on eating habits.
- Finances. I have issues with spending money that I shouldn't. Plan - create a real budget and stick to it
- Knowledge. I have an understanding of many concepts, yet I always feel as if I just have either surface knowledge of subjects, or just below. This is going to require the most time. I want to begin relearning most of my math and English. While I can do both well, at times I don't understand certain concepts that others learned in ages past.
- brush up on basic mental arithmetic. Simple to understand
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